Is Anyone There?
It’s 5am and I’m thinking about how rough it must’ve been for Lucas to have to take care of himself without any family… For three years… And whenever dad did show up all he did was talk about his search for Claus… Barely even asked Lucas how he was doing.
For all Flint talked about Claus, I love the idea that Lucas could feel scared about what would happen if he did return. Not consciously, not outwardly, but… Dad neglected him so much he could be scared of what home life would become with them both there. And then he feels awful for thinking that because of course he wants his brother back so bad what is he THINKING being scared…
He’s been alone too long. The house creaks in the wind, and it used to be calming when he and Claus would pretend it was a ghost outside. Now that ghost is his memory of his family, his memory of Claus, and he’s gotta face it alone and he’s not a crybaby he’s not!! He swears. There is a ghost. Hinawa pats his head and tells him he’s safe when he shivers in bed. He’s loved.. He doesn’t see her. He doesn’t hear her.
I just remembered that this whole time his house was being struck by lightning again and again. How many nights was Lucas woken up by the smell of smoke and panicked that this time he wouldn’t make it out of the house on time? How many times did he just decide to sleep outside with Boney because he was too scared to sleep in the house? There wasn’t anyone there who would make sure he wouldn’t get hurt. Given what happened to Hinawa, he wasn’t sure anyone even Could keep him safe anymore. Hinawa protected him and Claus from the Drago and now she’s gone. Claus tried to get revenge and now he’s gone AND Flint’s gone. Lucas’s safety comes at a premium of other peoples lives.
Or at least, that’s what the thoughts that keep him awake at night tell him.